Life has been so hectic! I now am a mummy to two gorgeous girls. When you have kids time just passes by so quickly!
They are two crazy girls with such character. Bethan is now 3.5 and Seren has just turned 2. I’m exhausted, stressed, happy and every other emotion rolled in to one. It’s hard work, but they bring me such joy! Life has changed so much.
We also moved and have a lovely little house but it’s got so much wrong with it, I can’t wait until it’s all fixed. I just want the place decorated how I want it, but that costs money and time which we do not have much of. Carl works 5/6 days a week and these two little ‘darlings’ constantly want my attention.
My asthma has been somewhat stable, I still require a lot of medication but haven’t had a hospital admission in so long! 5 years maybe? It’s been fab having such a reprieve from feeling so poorly but I wish I could say we haven’t been near a hospital. Unfortunately Bethan has developed asthma, one of my worst fears 😦 I thought they had both escaped it as they have been fine and a cold was just a cold. Around January this year Bethan started wheezing and coughing. I had hoped it was just a cold but she continued to cough every night and the next cold, hit hard, she was visibly having trouble, so off to the drs we went. He prescribed antibiotics and said yes she was indeed wheezing. I said to the Dr if she’s wheezing surely she needs salbutamol too, he had a grumble and prescribed it, I don’t think he liked being told what to do! You don’t mess with a mummy who knows her stuff 😉 anyhoo she continued coughing and getting really wheezy, especially on exercise. I found myself hovering at her bedroom door listening to her breathe exactly like my mum used to do 😂 is often wake up as a kid and my mum would be watching me. So the next cold hit and me and Carl sat in her bedroom watching her struggle, ringing 111 and deciding what to do. We waited so long for 111 to ring back, she got worse as she slept, so we made the decision to take her to A&E. It’s a good thing we didn’t hold out for 111 as she was poorlier than we thought. She was put straight on 02 and nebs. Carl had taken her in and was updating me through the night. Now we all know how my chest was never just simple, well Bethan being my child had to be just as awkward. The updates were getting worrying as she was wasn’t really responding to nebs and steroids, so in the morning I made my way up to the hospital. Carl text me while I was on route and said she was getting a cannula. My heart sank and I just thought nooooo not my baby! I had to be there. Anyway she seemed to pick up and then decline over the morning. It was decided she needed high flow 02. She was taken to the ward were she continued struggling and just slept. In the afternoon her sats dropped and heart rate increased. It was decided to give her some magnesium, I had told the drs about my history as they were worried about her lack of response and they were like ahhhh explains it 😂 I even told them I couldn’t have mag as it sends me into SVT so as a precaution they brought in the ecg machine! She responded to the magnesium and seemed to pick up a bit. I felt relieved so left her with my sister so I could go home to be with Seren. Carl was going to spend the night with Bethan. Well I wish I had stayed, she declined again over night and was given more magnesium and started on aminophylline. Talk about taking after her mummy! The next text I got had me in a right old panic and feeling very helpless. It was 1am and Seren was fast asleep next to me, I couldn’t just jump out of bed to be with her. They had called the nearest hospital with a peadiatric itu and had alerted the retrieval team (CATS). Ffs Bethan what the hell are you doing to me!!! As soon as Seren was awake we were at the hospital, thankfully the amino had kicked in and we were told she would be staying where she was for now. Phew. The next few days were uneventful, luckily, she improved over the next 3 days and was started on a preventer.
The consultant was around when I was a kid and remembered me 🙈 also the nurse looking after her was one of the best! She has been part of the ward for so many years and coincidentally we have been friends since I was a child causing trouble.
Since that episode any little sniffle I’ve been on red alert worrying. She’s had two further trips to A&E. The first time she was given magnesium and kept in for the night as she had low sats and the second time she just needed some nebs. I’m hoping so much that this winter is a quiet one 🤞. I have to say the after care has been appalling, she was supposed to be followed up at the hospital and an appointment never came.
So life plods on, Bethan has just started her second year of nursery and I’m counting down the days until Seren can join her 😂.
I might try updating a bit more regularly but it might be another few years you never know!